RAT RE: Money, Work, how

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RE: Money and creating.
Very hard when you are not Virginia Woolf, with a 'private income.'
I just saw a great actor on stage yesterday, but I knew that he came from BIG 
Texas oil money, so I don't think he's ever had to 'dayjob' it in his life.
Hence, more energy and focus for the craft and business of theatre.
I got sticky jealous of his situation, but at the same time, realized that it 
was his strength of purpose and love of acting that got him where he's gone, 
which is great plays and great projects with great directors and actors all 
around the country.

WHEN I FORGET I AM WATCHING A PLAY

The one discovery I have made is this - that human beings cannot create 
alone. The charging up and exchange of energy in the act of creation comes 
from another level of consciousness or parallel universe, and Money is 
attached to EGO and is not connected to the more subtle and evolved spaces 
that an actor/artist comes through in their striving. I am not sure if money 
makes life easier. I am not sure if it helps me direct myself in the correct 
ethical spirit>art.
All I know is that when I am acting from this place, I am LED, I am not 
LEADING. The work is telling me what it needs to do, the playwright's words 
are leading.

-Jessica
Freehold Theatre, Seattle