Re: RAT Sarah Kane

[InTheLime@aol.com]

In a message dated 99-02-26 02:38:38 EST, you write:

<< Sarah Kane, writer, born February 3, 1971; died February 20, 1999 >>

I know not her work...but am completely saddened.  Suicide.  I know there are
very valid reasons (I support you Dr. K) ...but don't do it kids until you
have exhausted all other remedies...call on me first and let me inject you
with lovins.  Do you see how much is lost so quickly?  Let me show you that
the connection is still vibrant and worthy.  It is, oh it is.  I have been to
the bottom and it has shown me the glory of the top.   Without the pain, how
could I have known when I found the joy?  Without the tears to clear the soul,
how could the laughter ring out so clear? 

I am saddened for this woman-child...so young...decided to erase her
creativity, while I witnessed others...so young...who fought with every ounce
and could not stay with us even when I - when many of us - held on so tightly
to their hands as they said "I can beat this, right?"  Yes.  It is ugly out
here sometimes...we disease and sicken...we lose the grasp.  But inside me
there is always your light.  I need not religion when I have you... For you
(collective) are my spirit, and I reflect that in my work.  

I start my day with this thought...and so I remember again to live every day
as if it were the last...but know that I will do everything in my power to
make it "just another day."  But one where I do what I love - whatever that is
in whatever brilliant, or rebellious or incredibily ridiculous way - as long
as I strive not to hurt another as I would choose to be so loved.  I ramble
aimlessly in the stupor of a week of three hour nights and 48 hour days doing
a play (which has been produced ad nauseum) about three men in a cell in
Lebanon.  - and these tears that choke and cleanse.  And suddenly I see that I
can stop worrying about whether the audience will come...and just breathe
deeply in the present, in the moment, and out of the fear.

I close...Truly - you are ALL of value children - journeymen - and mentors -
always and ever - AS AM I!  Stay here until you are taken please.  As
Johnathan says...stay the night - have no fear - I will not leave you - I am
here.

I want to read this woman's work.  How do I get ahold of it?  Point me towards
this please?

With one deep breathe - in and out -

--Aileen McCulloch, Managing Artistic Director
The Vagabond Acting Troupe
P.O. Box 355
Morgantown, PA 19543-0355
610-286-5567